hah

I click on your name on chat and leave the box open.

It's more satisfying than actually talking to you.

apologies to you

Can I just take a moment to be totally honest?

I am 99% sure that I loved you.

One could say that it was purely sexual attraction, but if that was the case, I think I wouldn't have cared so much.

I hate to admit it, but you were, and continue to be, the only man I've ever cried over.

Maybe I took you too seriously?

I was sincerely broken because your actions (or non-actions) were extremely different from your words.

And things were never the same. They never will be the same.

It'll always be awkward; a forced pleasantness that will hang over us like a dark cloud at every gathering with our mutual friends.

Our eyes will flicker towards and away from each other, never to meet for a full moment ever again.

It used to be your fault, but now it's mine.

I'm sorry.

mind blowing

It's kind of amazing isn't it?

Our attitudes are so cynical towards it,

but all we want is to love and be loved in return.

sorry bro

It's gotten to the point where I would rather have you gone than here.
It's over, I'm done.

just so you know...

you're not fooling anyone.

sweet baby girl

Some days will hurt more than others.

If he can't love you the way you want him to, leave him.

He cannot be taught.

acception

You know what?

I get that you're concerned about me, but I am an adult and it's not your business anymore.

Stop making me feel bad about it.

singing the blues

I'm kind of really tired of the amount of negativity in the world.

Let's focus on the positive for once, people.

who really needs sleep anyway?

Nights like these are always fun.

You know what I'm talking about.

Lying in bed with your eyes closed, waiting for the alarm to go off.

The days ahead are going to be so great...

hey life

you're kinda funny sometimes.

you're kinda awesome sometimes.

and you kinda suck sometimes.

please

Stop thinking that you know everything about me and how I spend my time.

You don't know the beginning of it.

This is why we'll never be close - you just assume that I'm fucking my life up.

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I'm crushing so hard! ahhhhhhh!

How will I go on living life as normally as I can when all I wanna do is obsess over this person and tell my friends everything about them?

ARGH!

oh britney ur mah gurl

I didn't cry today.

~*~Stronger than yesterday.

fuck it

My biggest flaw is jealousy.

Just fuck off already.

I don't mind

It's been raining a lot lately.

It makes me feel sad, but it's also kind of nice to be cozy and drink tea and watch the raindrops eat each other on my windows.

It also makes me appreciate the sun more. I took it for granted this summer.

I miss Calgary a lot right now. AKA party central!

I wanna snuggle in my queen sized bed with my dogs in the morning and be a party girl with my girls at night.

Soon babies, soon.

blah blah blah

I have to wonder why I always manage to do this to myself.

I never get over my heartbreaks, I just attach myself to someone else to take away the pain I'm feeling.

And that leaves me confused and lonely.

I love that I will never entirely figure myself out.

the joke's on me

it was really just all in my head.

um excuse me?

Wow.

Just wow.

That was cold.

I don't want to call you out on that bullshit or anything, but that really hurts.

There's nobody around to help me with this. They were right about him. He was trouble.

back to square one

It's so much easier to love someone who hurts you than it is to be lonely.

the beginning of the end?

I mourned the loss of you tonight.

Why are things so drastically different from just a few days before?

It's like you're leaving already when you really just arrived.

I really hope you choose to stay in my life.